A Love Letter To Alcohol
The ‘inner work’ isn’t easy.
It takes you to unexperienced depths.
It’s takes you to places you would rather leave buried. It reminds you of things you would rather erase from your memory and re-engages memories that are for most people, best left forgotten. It puts the spotlight on life events, people, situations, experiences that people try to leave in the dark.
‘Inner work’ is realising that all of the above can never remain buried, hidden, suppressed or forgotten as long as it is held within you.
It has nowhere to go.
‘Inner work’ is being triggered by another, having their ‘stuff’ collide with your ‘stuff’, co-creating a monumental shit-show, only to realise that their stuff actually is yours! It mirrors back to you any dormant, unaddressed, unresolved ‘stuff’ within you that stubbornly refuses to leave the building until it finally goes up in flames in order to get your attention, and from here, a choice point transpires.
It offers you the option to deep dive into the depths of your history, with the opportunity to smash the wheel of generational patterns, deep-seated programming, co-dependent tendencies, addiction and more...or not. You can choose to keep ignoring the fact that your life is on fire and accept that you are, point blank, responsible for refusing to call 911 while the building continues to burn.
Yesterday I took that opportunity, and following a month of layered inner work with 'The Feel Process' on a specific, deep-seated wound, I share what my deep dive yielded –
‘My love letter to alcohol'....
Uncertainty, unreliability, inconsistency.
Antagonised, aggravated, provoked.
Disrespected, criticised, hurt.
The incapacity to ever keep your word.
Judgements spill from your mouth.
Like venom, lethal to the heart,
Poisoning everything you hold sacred,
Contaminating everything, leaving monumental scars.
Oblivious to the destruction it causes,
In denial of repeated assaults.
The damage doesn’t need to be physical,
For words to shatter a vulnerable heart.
Destruction, devastation, indifference.
Instability, insecurity, fear.
‘Never knowing where you stand emotionally speaking’,
A way of life, intimately known and destined to repeat.
Depleted, mistreated, exhausted,
Un-prioritised, disregarded, forgotten,
Reactive, reckless and harsh,
No accountability, no responsibility acknowledged.
Unaware of the pain caused to others.
Unconscious of the effects of each choice.
Oblivious to patterns repeating,
Unbearable grief for many, insurmountable, unspeakable loss.
The unearthing of wounds isn’t easy.
Forgiveness vital for the restoration of peace.
Compassion vital for the understanding
That all that was generational, ends now with me.
(Do the inner work! …it’s worth it…I promise you…no one needs to carry shit like this! )
If you would like to know more about the process I used that will allow you to unearth everything dormant inside you, click the link below, or reach out if you have any questions.
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